I have been a member of Fetlife since its early days. I think the membership was still in the low-hundreds. Love the site, always have.
However, I have frequently gone long stretches of not using the site…at all.
I recently wandered back to increase awareness of this blog and have been back daily for a while. But every time I log in I log at a profile photo that isn’t me.
Okay, yes it is me, but it doesn’t feel like me these days.
When people talk about change and evolution, I am completely on board. Particularly when it comes to sex. I like that I’ve discovered new things and rarely mourn those interests that have subsided. I’ve got fetishes listed on my profile that I haven’t participated in in years and I am fine with that.
But that leads me back to a ripple of a thought that began when I looked at my rather outdated profile picture: Is it disingenuous to not accurately represent the person I am today?
Now, my profile isn’t entirely out of date. I have maintained my relationship status because–and now I don’t mean to brag–I have been propositioned at least 3 times on Fetlife (that’s right **snaps suspenders with thumbs**).
Self-flattery aside, the worry about about being as honest as possible om Fetlife comes, at least in part, from my overriding beliefs in all sexual relationships. I may be entirely monogamous in my breathing life, but I do believe that by joining a site that features the intimate, sexual details of others, I am entering into a sexual community that necessarily becomes a relationship.
So, I think I will do some updating soon. But here’s another problem: I really like that photo! It has a great story behind it, it appeared in a calendar and I look kinda hot!